That was how every single one of us were when we first came to this world.
As we ventured through unknown ground with nothing, we gained new things.
New Emotions
New Friends
New Experiences
New Memories
Despite gaining so much, there will always be times when one would feel empty. So empty as though we just went a round around hell and back to the starting line.
Sounds like something which happened to you before?
That is also the time when we start to feel moody and emotional. Duration would vary largely depending on the person's character and reason.
Other negative emotions such as loneliness usually follow suite and start bringing your world down to hell.
Best way to recover would be that someone comes along and checks you out, shares your burdens, shares your woes, and walk with you by your side.
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That is what friends are for isn't they? To have fun together, share each other's woes, joy, laughter and all other whatnots.
Someone whom you could rely on
Someone whom you could share secrets with
Someone whom you could bitch together with
Someone whom... you could show your true self to..
Then again, could you really be sure that this friend of yours is TRUSTABLE ?
Trust is something E X T R E M E L Y fragile.
It takes a really long time with a lot of effort to gain trust but takes little effort and an instant to lose it.
Sad to say, you can't always be sure that someone you know and currently trust truly means well. Plus even if you currently trust them, who can say what is going to happen later? Some incident could happen the very next minute and your friend could turn into a foe.
That is why there are cases of people who close themselves up after they end up losing a friend due to trust issues. There are also even those who close themselves up at the very start.
Why would they do something like that?
They are just simply afraid to get hurt and would rather be alone.
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I once mentioned this to a friend of mine..
I suck at a game called "Life" and fail at the a topic called "Friends".
It has been awhile since then but till this moment, I think I've gotten worse at it. I'll very much like to blame it on the lack of meet-ups, lack of communication, lack of chances..
Though it all probably adds up to lack of EFFORT...Lack of fate even?
You control what you do with your life but there are definitely so many things that are beyond your control. What you could do is to do your best and live life to the fullest.
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It has been a really stale and mundane year for me..NS, NS, NS. I'm currently way past the stage of having vigorous training every week and having mostly 5 days of boring life with 1.5 days of precious weekends to spare. ..
*Just realise that I ranted bout my mundane life in my previous post!*
Majority of my time is truly wasted doing nothing meaningful. Time could had been better spent on learning a new skill or at the very least, honing my current skills.
Much of my knowledge from Polytechnic have been lost..They are probably so deep in my mind that they have to be excavated using an excavator. Worse still, they might have escaped through the escape pods (Made from hair strands) and escaped last November.
My oh my, what am I going to do?! All those poor strands of hair had been shaved off my head already!
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This is definitely my worst year ever. Even after setting aside NS and related issues, everything else seems brim and going downhill...The source of the problem has been found and as much as I'd like to say that I would be able to fix it myself, it just ain't possible! Now I wonder who could help...
